Out of whack

I feel out of whack. Contemplating powerlessness and unpredictability in the wake of the recent climate floods. The bubble of societal comfort burst overnight. Does awful natural force ironically provide sight lines to sensing imbalance?

On a vastly different scale other things tug in the same direction. The other day we visited Mike our local beekeeper at his honey stand in Brown’s Bay. There’s less manuka honey than normal for this time. The manuka flowering season was shorter this year, even the kanuka was over in a few days due to the wet and wind. That explains why I never saw the usual white dusting, like icing, across the valley. And there’s less honeycomb too – the bees have been eating more of it to sustain themselves over the damp summer.

Female monarch butterflies have only just started to visit my swan plants in earnest in the past two weeks to lay small pale yellow eggs. It seems late. They are also sensitive to temperature. Last year was a disaster. Hundreds of caterpillars stripped my few small plants within days, then humped off starving, in the hopes of finding food elsewhere, or to die. This year I got a head start, planted early (late winter) and now have lush full-grown plants. But not many caterpillars. Most live for a day or so then disappear before they mature. They are probably being taken by the many wasps around that hunt for protein to feed their queens.

Impotence has crept into my haphazard attempts to support the local butterfly population.

After the cyclone

When the tail end of Cyclone Gabrielle spun away from us in Pauatahanui things became eerily still. I had an intense urge to climb up somewhere, perhaps to try and make sense of the climate tragedy that just happened further north. At the top of Kahu Road the rain and wind departed and the sky started to clear. The only sound was the intense ringing of cicadas, as if shouting out the shock that vibrated through our collective psyche.  

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Wayfinding by Moon and Stars

I might be going balmy trying to rescue moths that have fluttered in through the kitchen door at night. It seems rather futile in the challenging swirl of the times – wars, pollution, deep fakes. What does it matter? But moths make me interested in the idea of navigation, of finding a way through. They are mostly nocturnal and orient themselves by the moon and stars. Our city lights confuse and startle this ancient ability to chart a course, and so the fragile beings batter away their short lives at our windows and streetlights that shine into the darkness – false beacons.  Some of our ancestors shared that same ability to navigate using celestial bodies, and some people still do. Others quest even further beyond moon and stars for direction and meaning. Are we all somehow drawn together through space, searching for a pathway beyond the incomprehensible?   

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Queens and Storms

The weather has turned. A low-pressure bomb travelled up from Antarctica and into the Tasman Sea, lashing thunder, rain, hail and tornadoes onto our coast.

Walking down to Pauatahanui Inlet, my nose and eyes stream in the wind, tips of fingers icy. I notice a white-faced heron, hunched in ruffled grey coat, observing the brown waters that race into the inlet from Whitby’s streams and drains-turned-torrents, flipping storm water lids. Seagulls turn steeply, their undersides flashing white under pink clouds. The sound of traffic as evening commuters head home to warmth, children and dinners. A driver yawns. Back up at Postgate Park a huge gum tree has crashed down, perhaps overnight. Its remains lie in butchered lumps and splinters, after someone has been in with a chainsaw. Old yellow toadstools lie in the grass nearby, rotting like sloughed skin. On the news I hear that hundreds of kororā/little blue penguins have washed ashore up North at Ninety Mile Beach. A DOC spokesperson believes they are starving to death as climate change is creating waters too hot for the fish they feed on.

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